Saturday, February 5, 2011

Wow...2010 has gone by.I haven't write anything since the beginning of the 2011. No entry...soo..busy with so many changes that occured lately. In a way, I am free..:) well..considering free. I am staying at home mummy now, really a fulltime housewife..if you want to count out my job as a life insurance agent, considering that, the job is so time independent. No different to me since the last 5 or 6 years I am doing the job, people referring me as 'not working', ruling out the pay that I receive each month for the job. Now, I am not that bothered by the prospect, 'people will think that you are not working if you are not going out to the office at 9 in the morning and come back home at 5 in the evening'. It kind of interesting though sometimes, when people thought that I am jobless and they felt sorry for me and some even have that smirk on their face. Well...what the heck. I am so lucky what...I can stay at home, only working 2 or 3 days a week and still can earn as much as the 9 to 5 people do. At least I can help pay the bills. And most important, I have times with the kids. in love with them.

During the count down night, a friend sms me and wished me a happy new year and of course the necessary question "What is your new year wishes?"

Hmm...I am over 30 now, so this kind of 'azam tahun baru' become a little bit dull for me. Yerk!! Strangle me for I don't have any wish for this year. If I want anything, just go for it need to wish .. wish...Go for it, grab it and enjoy! When you are at 30, 40 is seem so close, you might lose a lot of thing if you are too tense to focus in your dream. But I do plan. Because what the success people said about 'fail to plan is plan to fail', I believe it.

Make it easier, for it, enjoy the process and do not stress yourself with the dateline because doesn't matter it you are a bit late, what matter is you are there eventually. Because if you are too absurd with the idea of getting there as soon as you can, 'accident' might occure. So, it's either you hurt yourself or you are going to hurt the others. And my humble advice, better if we don't hurt anyone along the process or the triumph will be haunting us at the end of our time. That is if we win anything. But if we fell flat on the face..? is not too late to wish everyone A Very Happy New Year 2011 and since I am due for quite a time for my latest entry, A Very Prosperous New Year to All my Chinese friends.

See you soon..;))

Here, I just want to share a story that I found online and it is very interesting for all of us that one time, being at this stage of life and when we look back, they will be a number of things that might be worth to rethink and feel blessed for it or may be, feel sorry and wish we could have turn the time back. But again, just enjoy because life is the only thing that we can't rewind. Enjoy reading and chill out...;)

Old Age is a Gift - I Have Decided

I am now, probably for the first time in my life, the person I have always wanted to be. Oh, not my body! I sometime despair over my body - the wrinkles, the baggy eyes, and the sagging butt. And often I am taken aback by that old person that lives in my mirror, but I don't agonize over those things for long.

I would never trade my amazing friends, my wonderful life, my loving family for less gray hair or a flatter belly. As I've aged, I've become more kind to myself, and less critical of myself. I've become my own friend. I don't chide myself for eating that extra cookie, or for not making my bed, or for buying that silly cement gecko that I didn't need, but looks so avant-garde on my patio. I am entitled to overeat, to be messy, to be extravagant. I have seen too many dear friends leave this world too soon; before they understood the great freedom that comes with aging.

Whose business is it if I choose to read or play on the computer until 4 am, and sleep until noon? I will dance with myself to those wonderful tunes of the 60's, and if I, at the same time, wish to weep over a lost love.. I will I will walk the beach in a swim suit that is stretched over a bulging body, and will dive into the waves with abandon if I choose to, despite the pitying glances from the bikini set. They, too, will get old!

I know I am sometimes forgetful. But there again, some of life is just as well forgotten, and I eventually remember the important things.

Sure, over the years my heart has been broken. How can your heart not break when you lose a loved one, or when a child suffers, or even when a beloved pet gets hit by a car? But broken hearts are what give us strength and understanding and compassion. A heart never broken is pristine and sterile and will never know the joy of being imperfect.

I am so blessed to have lived long enough to have my hair turn gray, and to have my youthful laughs be forever etched into deep grooves on my face. So many have never laughed, and so many have died before their hair could turn silver. I can say 'no', and mean it. I can say 'yes', and mean it

As you get older, it is easier to be positive. You care less about what other people think. I don't question myself anymore. I've even earned the right to be wrong

So, to answer your question, I like being old. It has set me free. I like the person I have become. I am not going to live forever, but while I am still here, I will not waste time lamenting what could have been, or worrying about what will be. And I shall eat dessert every single day

Today, I wish you a day of ordinary miracles.

Kindly send by my sister Alicia. Author: Unknown